Dyeing, Drying and Tyeing!

Phew! What ahectic week its been! I didnt realise setting up anEtsy shop was so time consuming. apart from dying all the yarn and re-skeining some of it I've had to re-photograph alot of it as my pictues were crap! Rachel showed me a really long winded way of upuloading pictures via Abode , then saving them to my folder. These pictures were too big for Etsy so I loaded them onto photobucket, re-sized them, which took forever and then uploaded them to Etsy. I was on here for hours with my eyes whizzing round in my head!! Then one day last week i was playing and chose an new upload option via some 'wizard' or other, (Sam would collaps laughing at my technicallity!!). This wizard gizmo saved the piccies staright to a folder and then I uploaded them straight to etsy!! Grrrr Non of that faffing about! anyway heres some of my latest dying;

BFL -colourway-party purple

BFL-colourway Lagoon

Merino 2ply cobweb lace-Partypurple

BFL-Victoria Plum.

I just love this BFL. Its so soft. I'm looking forward to making some socks of my own out of it. When re-skeining I got some knots in this skein so decided I cant sell it- How sad!!!!

This is actually my fave colourway so far-cherry-choc.

As far as my own knitting goes Its going very slowly as I've been spending the time doing the Etsy stuff, then being too knackered to knit!

But heres my progress,

This odd looking thing will eventually be a cushion cover!!Its fiddly as you pick up stitches to make frills and picking up a straight row on black is really hard. Its all done in Rowan and has cost me a fortune and I have enough yarn fro 2 cushion covers so I'll plod on

Next my lace jacket from Beads Buttons and Lace. I've managed to sew half of it wrongly with the seam on the outside!!! so it needs unpicking. there is a lace border to knit all the way up along and down which will take forever!

And last but not least my Jaywalker socks in Noro Kureyon Sock.

I read a funny remark on another blog and I cant remeber who's!! As this yarn is rather scratchy the comment was 'It'll either soften up in the wash or exfoliate your feet as you walk!!' Which I found very apt and amusing.

FM

I've been up and down like a yo-yo. I've now used up all the energy I had last week dying and skeining etc and I'm exhausted. My legs are killing me and I've had to be pushed up the stairs again from behind like a stuborn mule litterally!!!

I spent all of yesterday in bed and am off up there again now. no dying or re-skeining this week. Not that my stuff is exactly selling at the mo. Isp'ose it takes time to build up a shop.

I'm annoyed though as I missed Rachels art night at school, the chance to see her GCSE exhibition and she was awarded a prize for outstanding acheivemnt in art.

I need to rest as this weekend is my best pals sons Barmitzvah so there are steps to climb in the synagogue, hard wooden benches to sit on and aluncheon to be got through!!

Last Satruday we went to another friends house warming afternoon tea. it was nice but when we got home I went straight to bed and stayed there till Sunday mroning!! I missed art and an aromatherapy massage yesterday as I couldnt walk. Grrr!!!!

We are officially the worlds worst parents!!!

the law according to Josh!!! he loves and addores his hair. its his pride and joy. He was asked to get it cut at school as its long and passed his collar so he asked hubby to trim it. Only hubby's trim was about 3 " off it! Well you should have heard the tantrum when he saw it. 'You've ruined my life, I'm going to kill myself. My hair's the most important thing in my life' on and on hysterical!!! he cried himself to sleep. he wouldnt get up fro school, he texted Norman at lunchtime saying every one was laughing at him and he refused to speak to either of us for 24 hrs, then he started grunting at me, but is only just about speaking to his dad now!!!!

We apologised. O.K we made a mistake we're not perfect! But the way he carried on you'd think we'd cut his leg off or something.

Rachel has finished her exams and is home. Am I getting any help? Not alot!! I said to her she had to help and normn is frazzled tying to cope with me, the house, the kids and work, so yesterday she ironed 3 t-shirts and that seems to be it.

Sam is home for the summer in true teenage grunting, snarling style!!! he's working, hating it as its 'boring' and mundane sow e all know about it. But its money and when you're a student you cant scoff at money. If he moved himself, got off his backside instead of waitng for us to hand things to him on a plate he might have secured something he enjoyed! Gawd kids!!!

CINDERS KNITS ETSY IS UP AND RUNNING!!!!!!!

I'm soooo excited. I havnt blogged for ages, partly through being ill with the blasted FM. BUT mainly because I've been dying yarns. I adore dying yarns and built up quite a supply which I knew I'd never knit up, after all how many pairs of socks can I knit !!!! I know you're all going to tell me a girl can never have too much sock yarn!!!So I've been thinking of setting up an Etsy shop for a while , then my online pal Vixx set up a gorgeous one called WildFireFibres which seems to be proving succesful so I decided to follow suit.
I decided Etsy is an easy option as Its just a hobby. I dont expect to end up in the league if HipKnits and Fyberspates!!! And If I'm not too good I can leave it again until I feel able to dye more yarn.
You can find me Here- CIndersKnits-Etsy ANd!!!!! Ta, Da!!! I've already made a sale!!! I cant beleive it.
I have my last 3 skeins soaking in the sink and am off to dye them soon. Then I'm waiting for Mr Postie to bring me more supplies. Its soo exciting.
I havnt been doing alot of knitting. A few more rows of the Jaywalker socks and I started the lace border for my lace blouse. Its a 12 row repeat and is going to take ages to knit up and around the whole border of the jacket.

FM
On the FM front things eased up for a short while. I didnt feel as rough and was able to get up the stairs unaided which was a help. The lady who does my aromatherapy massages belongs to ym gym so she kindly offered to take me with the wheelchair which was wonderful and very kind of her. I managed 2 lenghts of the baby pool and a good soak in the hydrotherapy pool with all the jets.It was so good to go out as I'd not been to the gym for 6 weeks.
Of course it didnt last! Friday I had a funeral to go to, next doors dad, then I'd told Rachel we'd go to Manchester shopping for her holidays. I spent 4 hours on my scooter. I ws a bit knackered to say the least Saturday and yesterday. I spent yesterday setting up my Etsy shop so my eyes were boggled by the time I got off the computer. I've got more to add, but I'm to bog eyed at present so I'll post this and add bits as I need to.

Secret Knitting Projects revealed

KNITTING

it was rachels birthday last wednesday so here are the knitted monkeys i made for her. now dont laugh. The first one is a complete and total disaster!!! Its supposed to be the PG Tips 'Monkey'. the pattern being the original ITV digibox Monkey . But lets just say that I have actually knitted Monkeys genetically modified evil twin 'monkey-Pig-Thing'!!!!! It just looks really scary and a cross between a monkey and a pig!!! otherwise known as a punky or a mig!!!! The second monkey is felted and I quite like him. Rachel was suitably non-plussed and I have taken the felted monkey myself! good job the yarn for the whole lot only cost £6!

I'm knitting a cushion cover for the lounge as part of the furnishings for when its decorated . I's like to knit all the soft furnishings myself if I can.

I've taken up the lace jacket I started last year but there was a mistake in the back so I've had to undoe miles of lace!!! Plus dear Josh spilt a smoothie in my knitting bag last year. I'd forgotten about it until I frogged a few feet of stiff yarn!! just as well i undid it really!

I've dyed some lovely teal lace for myself. its silk. Silk absolutely stinks when you wet it . Everyone in the house was moaning about how our house smelt like a pig stye!!! I dunno why it pongs quite so much but it does. wet wool smells far less. I've also been doing some dying for presents so no photos of that! I've just soaked some wool now and am off to dye it once I've finished on here. I love dying and the whole process. I love thinking up colour combinations and seeing how it all comes out once its 'cooked'.

As part of the Angel yarns forum Sockathon I've cast on some Jaywalker socks on Kureyon Sock. I just adore this colour combination. The yarn itself feels a bit hard and scaratchy so we shall see how it knits up

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and look at these fab vintage patterns I found at the centre that I attend my art class at.I gave them all my old pattrns which I regeret now. Theyw ere 80's patterns. But someone else brought these 60's patterns in so I nabbed them for my collection. If you can see clearly enough on the photo , just look at thoae 2 blokes!!!! Lovely!!

FM

Same old same old I'm afraid. Up and down like a yo-yo. But a little bit improved from the last few eeks. I've had a really busy week. Monday I rested actually. I was supossed to be supervising RAchels cooking for her party on Wednesday night, but Hubby turned up in the kitchen and banished me!!! I just shouted instructions from the lounge whilst I sat and knitted. I've been out to lunch twice this week. Once on Wednesday with Mum and dad to a pub and secondly with my pls on Friday also for a pub lunch. two lots of baguette and chips! naughty me!!! I went for my massage on Tuesday and in between I've mainly rested or lspet on the bed. My legs are killing me and feel like I've just run up 10 flights of stairs.

Last Sunday we were invited up to Leeds to meet up with my cousins which was really nice as I've not seen them for a bout 6 years! considering we're 50 mins away from each other its bad really but we all get caught up with our own lives.

I was only thinking that with FM you really find out who your friends are. I can honestly say that The only people who regularly bother with me are my 2 old school friends Mandy and Karen. I did have a circle of 4 couples who have formed themselves into a clique and I may aswell be invisible. It did used to get me very upset that the 'gang' were all going out and chatting on the phone and not including me, but now I've decided I couldnt give a shit basically. infact I'm not even going to bother phoning them. if they're that concerned about me they know where I am.

Home

We just about survived Rachels party! she was supossed to sort out the food, but guess who ended up sitting in the kitchen like Cinderella !!!By 10am I was sick of the noise and was desperate for some peace and quiet. I was too ill to go out. hubby took Josh to the pictures but I wasnt up to it. ah well! at least its only once a year!

Josh was hilarious when we went to leeds. The family havnt seen him since he was a toddler. They were all going on about how gorgoeus he looked, how he should be a model! Mr vein was in his element strutting around like a peacock!!!! Its been half term but is been O.K. I did offer to have a freind of Josh's sleep over, but I felt so yuk and unable to cope that they stayed at his friends house. Then hubby took him out on business on a train one day which he loved. Last night Rachel wanted the family to go out for a meal for her birthday but she chose Pizza Express. YUk!!! the kids enjoyed it but it wasnt for us adults and it was too noisy. I feel very fat and overstuffed this week 3 meals out!!! its either litterally feast or famine!!! i'll be stuck in for weeks now with no socialising at all.

Plus We made a vat of chilli and a huge sweet and sour chicken for rachels party so I ate chilli virtually every night last week. Good job it wasnt cholesterol testing week!!!!

Sam is home this Friday for the summer. I cant beleive he's had a whole year at uni. it goes so quickly.

Look what I won!!!!

KNITTING

I won this beautiful felted knitting tote from Bearium. for her blogiversary. its beautifully made and lined . she also sent me a skein of her home dyed sock yarn Thank you bearium. the bag is in full use already!

I am continuing with the secret projects. nearly finished. The fun bit is going to be when, after felting,I then pin the thing in question out to dry! how do you hide blocking from someone?

I'm also busy with hubby's bee socks which are coming along slowly but nicely. They're really a foil at the mo for when a certain someone is home and I cant knit the secret projects.

But I'm itching to move on. I have an unfinished lace cardi for the summer from last year which I want to finish,plus the cotton top to go underneath it which was frogged. the yarn is still skeined after being re-washed so I have to wind it into balls but havnt the strenght at the mo.

Also, considering I'm broke and heavily overdrawn these balls of lace weight mohair fell into my lap. They're crystal palace and on offer from Knit and caboodle for just £2 per ball!! I decided that having messed up KSH which is expensive at £7 per ball, I would try these.!! This colour might not be to everyones taste but for winter with my brown outfits it'll do nicely. I can feel another cocked up shawl attempt coming on!!!!

I've fallen out with my Fibro!

Now for the boring moany bits so skip this! This is my self indulgence!!

I am no better physically. This is one BIG flare up!! Infact it feels more like CFS than FM! I am totally and utterly wipped out still. From Wednesday last week until Sunday night I literally hardly moved i was so weak.I slept in till 11 am, got up, had a long hot soak with my aromatherapy oils and sat in the garden or lay on the bed. I hardly knitted. I didnt have the strenght. I 've hardly been able to walk. I've shuffled around. I havnt been able to climb the stairs or up the steps into the house. I've been crawling upstairs on all fours with my tush stuck in the air! very dignified. The other problem has been, if I was on my own, once I got to the top of the stairs, how did I stand up? I couldnt pull myself upright, so I perfected this great manouver!! A sort of crab crawl, frog leap thingy!! I'm entering it for the olympics in the gymnastics section!!! Only I didnt end upright with my arms outstretched like when they finish in the real gymnastics..Ta,Da!!!

Infact talk about making choices and using up spoons! I would ensconce myself in the garden with drink, knititng, book ,phone if it was downstairs, if it was upsatirs forget it. But then I'd want another drink so I knew I couldnt climb the outside step to the kitchen so I'd have to go the longway round through the dining room french doors. This meant extra walking. Loo trips were down to a minimum! at least we have one downstairs!

If I was on the bed and needed a drink or felt hungry I was to exhausted to shout for attention so I just lay there waiting for someone to come upstairs. I wondered what do people who live alone do? starve or dehydrate. I have been totally dependent on hubby or the kids for virtually everything these last few weeks. I needed money for school diners and the cleaner and other bits so hubby wnet to the bank. How do you manage if you live alone and cant get out?

At some points I was so exhausted I didnt have the strenght to speak or think and I could see hubby was getting cross as he couldnt understand what I wanted. we resorted to miming!! The diet has gone out of the window. I'm not stuffing myself at all, but I'm eating whatever is made for me and if its oven chips and egg who cares!In fact I indulged in a chip butty-oooh with buttered bread and the egg inside!! loverrrly!! All the butter and egg yolk were running mmmmm. luckily this was a very rare happening! Dont think my cholesterol would like it too often!

Sunday night Josh was out at a disco so I sumoned some strenght from somewhere and we went for a meal. We tried a new restaurant near us which is the wierdest mix I've ever been to a Thai /Indian!!! I have to say stif fried chicken and noodles and naan bread really dont go, But the meal was lovely. The service appaling, but we couldnt get cross coz it was so hilarious. The waitress's were Indonesian, Thai, the chefs were Bangladeshi/Indian. They all had very little English and it was Fred Carno's! We got our starters twice, the wrong drinks were going to the wrong tables, the wrong food!!But the waitress's were so lovely you couldnt get angry! we'd go again.

Monday I was tired , but made it on my scooter to the library. Rachel accompanied me. Then I rested. Tuesday I went by taxi to my art class and massage. When I got home I collapsed again and spent Tuesday evening inbed and all yesterday shuffling around again! I was tempted to try a swim today as I've not been for about 3 weeks, but I'm resting and finishing some knitting instead. I hope I improve soon.

I'm getting very frustrated by it all. The garden has been mowed but not dug over. I cant weed. My next door neighbours father is dying and she's an only child and is nursing him. I'd go with for moral support or to help a bit If my body was normal!!!!

I'm worried incase I get depressed again. Its hard to feel cheerful when you feel like an amoeba all splodgy and plurrrrrp!!

The further adventures of Joshua 'Mole' aged 12 and 1 month!!

He's still going strong with his 'Pandora'. Its hilariously funny watching him in a morning. He straightens his hair. its all across his face like the rock stars have it and he's busy with the Lynx and aftershave. he even cleans his teeth in a mornign without a fight! Young love!!

He's been in trouble again at school this week. Its so exasperating. he's not a horror as his teachers say. They all like him. he's just silly and messes about. I was thinking that it does seem to tie in to my deterioration. I'm often in bed when he gets home and often asleep. I can see him not getting his Wii or x-box, whatever it was he wanted. I wish he's just settle down at school. This year is nearly over-can you beleive it so lets hope next school year is better for him.

In Which I design my first Knit and contribute to Rachels G.C.S.E art!!

Knitting

well I've done it. Made my first ever design. Now Dont laugh, especially those of you who regularly design stuff. I am no Euny jang!!! Rachel asked if I could knit a dolls size dress for her Art GCSE. so we chose the yarn. some of my home dyed sock stuff which I'd been looking forward to making inot socks for me! Then she drew what she wanted. I knitted a tension square and worked out the maths for the design. It had to have a bottom frill and a different stitch for a waist band. (she doesnt ask for much!). So here it is.... Ta, Da!!! Do you think They'll ask me to design for Rowan next???LOL!!





You cant really see the waist detail on here or the frill but there you go! The start of big things! (I dont think so!!)

I've done some more sock stash enhancing and bought this lot off E-Bay for £8.50!!! -sock yarn BTW




I got them from Forest Greener By the time postage was added it all came to£16 Which for the amount of yarn I've got is amazing. I can knit some Fairisle socks now. I want to try FairIsle and it really isnt for my body shape so I'll stick to socks and Mitts and such like unless I can get it going in Vertical stripes.



FM

Oh Boy! Its another FM whinging time so scroll on if you dont want to be bored!!

Last week actually I had some good days. Tuesday I made it to my art class, wednesday I went swimming. I managed 6 lenghts. Thursday was the pits. My cleaner normally comes at 11 ish so I can sleep in but she wanted to come at 9am. Now as you know, I dont do mornings. I got up at 7.30am and by 1.30pm I was on my knees and went to bed. I slept till 4pm but I was done for for the rest of the day. I spent most of it back in bed. Friday I felt good. The sun was out so decided on a little excursion. I got on my trusty steed (my scooter) and whizzed up to the docs for prescriptions, to the gym for a little swim and hydro pool, to the chemists to collect said prescriptions and to Subway for my lunch. Then home again . Saturday I felt O.K again so Hubby took me up to Holmfirth to the headquarters of the Knitting And crochet Guild of GB. we finally found them in a dark satanic mill (a la Jerusalem) in the back of beyond. it was an old damp mill with wobbly floor boards and wobbly stairs. But I bought some undyed lace yarn and undyed lace weight silk for 1p per gram. It all cost me £2.80!! Then we went into Holmfirth which is a lovely little English village, but very hilly and the shops and pavements are not disabled friendly. still it was a good ride out.

and theres more!



my contribution to Rachels GCSE's and Rachels contributons to my FM!!



Dear darling daughter! i woke up Sunday lunch time absolutely exhausted, aching etc from 2 days excursions. i planned on doing zilch and resting to recover. Enter RAchel. She announces that she has to do some textile designing for her exams and can she dye some white cloth using my acid dyes? O.K. But Mum has to show her what to do and she conveniently keeps dissapearing upstairs leaving someone else-namely me- to stop the stuff boiling dry!!! so I'm up and down to the kitchen like a yo-yo.Then she asks can I knit a doll size skirt for her today? O.K . then the skirt becomes a dress. so Off I went and did a swatch then did the maths. Now I suffer from the Fibrofog at the best of times and thinking is no good for me these days!! Thinking and being tired is def a bad mixture. By the time I'd worked out the rows and measurements for this little dress I was exhausted mentally and in a fog. Then I sat for a few hours and knitted these 2 sides up. Normally I knit a bit and when I get tired I stop and rest. Not with this. It had to be done to meet the deadline!! I was collapsing with exhaustion by the time I'd finished. I went to bed and stayed there all day yesterday too.I felt terrible, absolutely wipped out and in awful pain.

The things we do for our kids!! I was getting shooting pains in my hands and fingers they were so bad. yesterday I was like a boiled lettuce leaf. all Limp and saggy!!!

Anyway today I felt alot brighter and I've been to my art class and for an aromatherapy massage on my scooter again. its sunny and the sun always makes me feel better. I hope I get some credit in these exams!!!
today being wednesday-its taken me 2 days to blog, I'm exhausted again. One day I'd love to wake up not feeling like I've done 10 rounds with Mike Tyson. There is hope. anyhow the sun is out , the sky is blue (break into song here) so I'm off to put my i-pod on U2 ofcourse and sit and knit in amongst the weeds-oh, er garden!!



Books

Some musings. I love reading. I measure how well I am by what type of book I can read. When I was very depressed I couldnt read at all. Then I increased bit by bit , fist to trashy magazines like Bella and Best abd even Hello. Blimey I was stooping low! then onto easy reading novels like Emma Blair and lillian Harry. easy romantic novels that dont tax the brain. I slowly made my way up. It varies now what I read as to what mood I'm in. Lately I've been worming my way through a few of Richard and Judy's book list. I loved Notes on an Exhibition by Patrick Gale and have read some more of his since. I also loved The Book Theif by marcus Zusak. But not keen on the Rose of Sebastapool by.. cant remember.. but its in my list at the side!-I've discovered CJ Sansom and the Shardlake misteries. I lvoe these. These are my favourites to date. Not on the R&J book list my dad gave me Winter In Madrid to read. I would never have picked it myself. at the back was a chapter for one of the Shardlake books and I was hooked. again aginst the grain. Whilst I love historical novels. I dont like murder misteries normally. But here was one, like a latter day Cadfael and I cant get enough of them.
unfortunately my reading is very unsatisfactory at the mo. we are broke and so I've turned to the library instead of buying a book a week. But my local library is crap and so I've had to resort to Barbara Erskine. Same old plot same old characters different time, and some others I've never heard of!! I might just have to go and buy a novel again. its like knitting and yarn, good for my well being , therapeutic and so therefore all part of my therapy and needs to be funded!! Thats my argument anyway!! I dont buy full priced novels anyway. Only from Play.com and places like that.

Lace Socks finished

KNITTINg

finally I've finished my lace socks in homedyed sock yarn. I think the yarn is Trekking XXL although it could be Violet Green Socrates! I cant remember. Dyed with koolAid.

I much prefer dying with acid dyes as you get better colours but I'm also going to try Cake food dyes as they come in a large range of colours adn I know whenever I've iced a cake my hands are always beautifully dyed and it wont wash out!!

here are some photos of the socks

I started some more socks. These are Bee striped socks for hubby. They're this colourway because he has a thing about honey!!

I decided to do some yarn dying last week which I havnt done for ages. I really enjoyed myself messing about. I love experimenting seeing how the various effects are going to turn out. I didnt have a plan for any psecific colours. I thought I'd see what jumped out at me. Instead of dying one half one colour and the other half another colour so it knits up striped, I threw the colours on randomly. The balck is lace weight merino from Violet Green and the other is sock yarn also from violet gree, unfortunately I cant rmember if its supersock or merino!!! The lace yarn didnt work out as well as I'd have liked. The black dye took over. I find this. I've not learnt to control black dye yet properly. still its given me the bug to carry on.

Lace weight merino

Sock weight

I got some colinette Jiterbug sockyarn. They had an offer on when they re-launched their website with 25% off. How can a girl resist!

FM

its been a very difficult few weeks with Passover. But thankfully its now over! Thank god!! I've spent alot of time in bed with no energy what so ever. I feel like a boiled lettuce leaf most of the time! The pain is there again but not as agonising since the patches. but I'm not able to do very much at the mo. still hopefully it will calm down now a bit.

Thankfully my mood is really perky which is good considering! Onwards and upwards.

I've sent my DLA appeal off. It took me 4 days to type my appeal letter out so we shall see what happens. if they actually beleive I have FM and how badly it affects my life. I wish they'd have been here on Saturday when I was so weak I couldnt get into hubby's Freelander and I couldnt get up the stairs at home. I kind of crawlde on all fours with hubby shoving me from behind! very undignified.

Making choices

FM



Its been a difficult and exhausting week and if I'd let it, I could really have got very down about all the choices I've had to make. its really hilighted just how much I cant manage any more with this blasted FM.




Its pre Passover week. always hectic in anyones schedule with all the cleaning. the premise being that as the hebrew slaves fled Egypt and didnt have time to let their bread rise , so we're not allowed to eat anything levened. I.e cakes, bread etc but also we're not allowed to own anything levened . so a great house clean begins to search for and obliterate any living crumb. I've had my cleaner doing most of it, but the kitchen is such a huge job. we've had to empty and clean every single cupboard. Now we also have to have special pots and pans that hve never touched a crumb of leavened stuff. They all had to be got out from their home 11 months of the year and the kitchen cupboards emptied and the Passover pots, pans and crockery put in their place. A mammoth task. On top of all that there was baking to do and the special passover meal a Seder ,



Phew!!! So it really hit home. Do I go swimming or clean a cupboard? Teusday I went out to lunch with my next door neighbour, then for a massage. These things are far more important to me! But it put my schedule miles behind. after that I had to do what was necessary and its absolutely floored me.



If you've ever heard of The Spoon Theory- . This was written by someone who has Lupus to try and explain to people how those of us with invisible illness's have to make choices. I.e you are given so many spoons a day, say 12, which are like units of energy, you then have to decide how to use them up in a day. I.E to get up, to get dressed, to go for a swim etc. Once you've used all 12 up for the day you've had it and have to go to bed. All I can say is I've used my 12 spoons up and more. I've spent most of the weekend in bed surfacing for half the Seder one night and I managed all of it last night. Which has spoilt things really.



The kids are off school for passover. but Josh only has one friend at home. All the others have gone to Israel for passover. That is my ambition. When I win the Lottery. to go to Israel fro Passover. no cleaning, no killing myself, just Sun, a beach and a hotel thats kosher for Passover , that does everything for you. Bliss. Trouble is it'd cost about 3 grand to do it!



I've asked hubby to take a day off if he can and take Josh out. I cant do anything with him at all.







KNITTING



I'm still knitting the lace sock. With being so exhausted I've hardly managed to do much knitting. I bought More BIg Girls Knits- Which has some lovely patterns in it. and I like the fact that my size is usually the smallest instead of the biggest!!



I've won something!!! A blogger freind Bearium picked me to win a knitted bag for her Blogiversary!! I never win anything so I'm quite chuffed.







My dear online pal Leigh has given me an award



So I'm very delighted to receive it.

Rachels Rock Debut

No photos this week knitty or otherwise! its either feast or famine!
KNITTING

1)I'm carrying on with my secret mission which is nearly finished. photos after the recipients birthday and then you'll all go, 'is that it?', not worth all the secrecy!!!
2)I'm also finishing a mate for another lone sock as part of the Angel Yarns forum Sockalong Sockathon!
3)I've managed to finally unravel the yarn from my dreadful top faux pas last summer. The yarn has been skeined and washed and is ready to be wound back into balls. But it still looks kinky to me as in not straight!-not kninky peverted!!!
I want to start some 2 at a time socks but I'm trying to finish whats on the needles first.

FM
I'm not so bad at the mo which after the last 3 weeks is good! I saw my rheumy on Wednesday expecting him to discharge me as they cant do anything fro FM really, but instead he ordered more blood tests, involving an hours wait outside the vampires door, and I've to see him in 2 months when he gets the results. He also recommended I increase the pain patch to 1o micrgrams which knocked me flat last time, but is O.K now. My body has obviously go used to the lower level .
I've been refused the higher rate mobility DLA, but been awarded the lower rate for care and mibility indefinitely. I've asked for an appeal from but am not sure whether to meddle or not now that I've got an indefinite award.
I'm as usuall frustrated as I should be cleaning the kitchen ready for Passover, but I keep having to amke choices. yesterday Josh sprang afternoon tea on me so thats where all my energy went. Today I've been swimming , the ironing is mounting up so its either ironing or cleaning out a cupboard! Strangely enough I chose to come on here
THE SHOE SAGA
LAst week I managed to get into Manchester with Rachel. she had a sweet 16th birthday ball and had borrowed a dress and wanted strappy shoes. Well we went from one end of town to the other then back again also looking at evening dresses.!! it was getting late, she was in a strop, it was all my fault we were late!! Finally, at the 11th hour,she bought some nice strappy black shoes. Got home, decided nobody was dressing up in a ball gown so wore a dress she already had! Then she took the new shoes with her in a bag and came home saying nobody had worn high heels, she hadnt worn the shoes , didnt like them and I could take them back!GRRRR its at this point that you could cheerfully strangle them isnt it!
On Saturday I went into Bury to take the shoes to another branch of the shop. When I got their they refused to take them and said I had to go into MAnchester! Atthis point I was ready to wrap the blasted shoes around Rachels neck! Anyway I phoned up the Manchester store, explained I was disabled and they promised to refund the money as soon as I could get there. On Sunday Hubby and RAchel went and took them back. All because she had to have apair of shoes no matter what!

RAchels BAnd debut
Tuesday night was Battle of the BAnds comp at RAchels school. SHe's been playing bass guitar in this band for 2 years on and off so I was looking forward to seeing her play live. On the night I was exhausted and was trying to shake off a migraine. The last thing I wanted to do was go to school and listen to 5-6 bands twanging and screeching, But I'm so glad I went. each band had to play 3-4 songs. One had to be written by themselves and one had to be a cover song.The other song was whatever. One of the judges was some rock star from a 90's group who has his own recording studio and the first prize was a day in his studio making a record.
All the bands were good in their own way. But when Rachels band came on all her year went wild!! Rachel was the only girl in the show and one of the few bassists. Alot of the kids had 2 guitars but no bass!!! They did 3 of their own songs which were very good and then finished with Kaiser Cheifs I predict a Riot. It was fab, The whole school was up singing and rocking and yelling 'Go Rachel'!!! The only thing that let them down was the lead singer. he wasnt too good. Theyd wante dRachel to sing but she was too shy but I think she regretted it later. The comments were that they had the best Rythemn section of any band but they didnt win becuase of the singing. But everybody, including the school music teachers and the judges said Rach was marvelous and should find herself a good band!! Our own SuzieQuatro!!! We were so proud of her. My neice and S-I-L came and they were crying with pride!!

Josh turns 12
On saturday he took his girlfriend to the pictures to see Son of ranbow! it was hilarious watching him bath and preen and straighten his hair and load himself up with aftershave!!! His birthday was yesterday and he's asked for extra money rather than a party. Fine by me!! he'd wanted a sleep over. No way!! we gave him £20 extra pounds which is far cheeper than a party or trip to the pictures would have cost and much less hastle!! yesterday morning he asked his grandparents to come for afternoon tea . I though it was lovely that on his birthday he wants to be surounded by his grandparents. It meant extra work for me but Rach helped. we had bagels and buns ,a choc cake and a birthday cake. All bought I hasten to add. The days of me making impromptu cakes are gone!! he got lots of money and wants a Wii or PS2 so hubby and I have decided the deal is. he brings home a daily report sheet from school every day till July and if he has excellent remarks all day everyday, at the end of the school year he can buy his Wii or whatever. We didnt really want him to have a playstation but if it means he behaves himself in school we will cave in.
Rachel bought him some new aftershave. well he gassed us out yesterday. he stunk!! In a nice way, but we couldnt breath. I think he had his Lynx on too!!! its really hilarious seeing as though you couldnt get Sam to wash at his age and we still nag him to use deodorant! he hates aftershaves!!! arnt kids funny?

Its Finished!!!

Knitting

i've finished my Stepping Stones jacket finally

here is my size 0 sylph like body modelling it!!!

I have been being very wicked again and buying yarn. so here are lots of photos.

Debbie Bliss Pure Cashmere. A huge saving in the sale at Stash of Chester. Think I'm going to knit a Koolhaus hat in this if its the right yarn.

This is cash/silk lace weight from Vixx at Wildfibres Etsy. to be used of a Branching out scarf

This is pure wool for an amazing £1 per ball. from New Lanark Mill. Its for a surprise so news of it when its knitted up and the recipient has received it.

Now Some W.I.P's

V- Neck vest top in Rowan Pure wool. hopefully this one will hold its shape!!!

CATS PAW LACE Scarf. tHE CATS IT SUPPOSED TO LOOK LIKE ITS RUN IN A STARIGHT LINE! bUT MY CAT HAS SPLODGED ACROSS THE SCArf

And finally, I forgot I bought some Laceweight Merino Seacell from Hipknits sale. I also had a money off code so I got it for £7.

ITS EITHER FEAST OR FAMINE IN THE PHOTO DEPT! THAT WILL PROBABLY BE IT for weeks now!!!!

FIbromyalgi

Things arent too good on the FM front for a change!!! I was struggling very badly with the exhaustion and for the past 2 weeks the pain has been creeping up as well. I think I've over done it as yesterday was hell. I went to art class came home and went to bed. I felt like I had flu' My skin was and still is sore to touch, I ached and burned all over and I was just totally exhausted. I think this is a flare as over the weekend hubby did more decorating. He did behind the bookcase so it was over and done with and we wouldnt have to empty or move it again. he unusually for him, he's a perfectionist when it comes to decorating, only did the top bits that you see! Good job we're not planning on moving!! its like painting round the piano!!! I helped empty the books and china and stuff from the cabinets. Well I managed 5 trips to the kitchen and that was me done. Josh did the rest! Then Monday I spent the whole day on and off putting the books back whilst Sam filled the china cupboards . This is what did me in. I've been so sore I havnt found a place to lie in bed! My hips are murder so I find lying on my sides painful, my heels are burning and painful so lying on my back hurts! I tried my front, but then my knees and feet hurt!! And this is in a waterbed so good job it wasnt an ordinary matress! I've just rested the last 3 days. Its all I can do. No swimming, no outings on my scooter. I've just stayed in, been on the computer till my shoulders and neck fire up, knitted a bit till my hands and shoulders fire up and then given up and rested on the bed!!I still made myself get dressed in soft clothes, trackies. coz shlouching around in PJ's reminds me of when I was severely depressed and I aint going down that road ever again!!!

anyway I feel much more cheered up today. I'm sat here typing, listening to U2-my fave album of the mo is their greatest Hits 1990-2000. A mix of most of my fave tracks.

I've made contact with more FM sufferers via the Angel Yarns Forum so have been PM'ing merrily!and my dear friend Chezza whom I met via the Stitchlinks forum posted me a little pressie which arrived yesterday and cheered me up greatly. just a note book and pen from a nearby animal sanctuary, but it wouldnt have mattered if it was a pack of chewing gum. It just the thought that counts and the surprise esp when one is feeling down.

FAmily
On the home front. Sam is coming to the end of his home visit. I'm really going to miss him. he's been such a help to me whilst I've been bad. At first he drove me bonkers as he was in typical student mode, going to bed at 3am, falling out of bed at 1pm and lounging around on the computer till 4pm when he decided to get showered and dressed!! But every day hes' emptied the dishwasher for me and yesterday he went up to the local shops and post office on some errands for me which was a great help.
Hubby will miss being woken up by doors slamming at 3am!!! Sam hasnt learnt to close doors quietly yet!!!
In the house we're preparing for the most hated festival in the Jewish calender Passover. Luckily the cleaner is doing most of the cleaning. I just cant manage it any more although I did manage to wash the paintwork on the landing on Sunday. thats my whole contribution!! I've just ordered loads of minced fish to make gefilte fish and fried fish(BTW the photos on Wiki are discusting!!). Next comes the butchers! Then the rest of the Passover shopping. Its so expensive. They purposely put prices up. You have to buy the food with a special rabbinic seal saying the food is kosher for Passover and they bang the prices up coz they've got you. The food over Passover is gross! You have to eat unleavened bread so the great Rabis of old came up not with pitta bread or chappatti style BREAd. But Matzah! cardboard that doesnt fill you up and constipates you!!! Ah well these things are sent to try us. What I do know for sure is I will put weight on as its all sugar and eggs and potatos.
Right I'm off to knit

As Per Usual, I've cocked it up!

Knitting
referring to the Stepping Stones jacket of course! I had it all sewed up, washed and drying with just the ends to weave in and then it needed pressing. But I had trouble getting the sleeves sewn in. The armholes seemed much bigger thatn the sleeve circumference and the edging was pulling all around the jacket. so I decided , why spoil the ship for a ha'poth of tar. I undid the sleeves and re-measured. For some reason one sleeve was 3 inches too shprt! Then I read the instructions(This always helps!) I should've not sewn up the last 2 1/2 " so that they couild go round the armhole shaping. Doh!!! So I've knitted my 3 extra inches of sleeve, re-done the picot edging, re-sewed it up leaving the gap and ran out of embroidery yarn. tried to sew up in the chenille which is imposible so I've abandoned ot for a few days!!
I always seem to mess up my knitting and I dont seem to like it once its done. I went shopping yeaterday and bought the sewing up thread so I'll pick it up tommorrow and carry on. But then I have to undoe the whole edging which is curling and re-sew it at the right tension! Grrr its so frustrating.
I've been doing some perfectly plain ,mindless knitting, my V-neck tank top. This time in Rowan 4-ply whci is knitting as DK tension for some reason. Must be my knitting. No photos. My batteries have gone.

FM
Gawd I feel so USELESS! I just think I've adjusted to this level of exhaustion and inactivity and whamo! Something happens and I hate it and my situation all over again. So whats irritated me this time? Nothing earthshatering, We've been trying to decorate our lounge and dinning room for about 3 years. cant imagine why its not happened yet! something to do with me being ill, hubby being cheif cook and bottle washer plus only childs taxi driver. he never has time. He fitted a new fire last May and the chimney breast has been half bare ever since! This weekend, as we dont obviuosly celebrate Easter, has been designated 'Decorate the chimney breast and carry on with as much of the room as possible' weekend! So Friday we started stripping the wallpaper. I helped. HA, HA! 'helped'. ten whole minutes of pulling off wallpaper and then my body went. legs, energy , the lot!!! I was so pissed off with it all. Hubby wanted to go to B&Q and buy some stuff. Now if I drove and had energy I could've done it. It just gets me so frustrated as he's a one-man band. We cant afford a decorator so its going to take months of him decorating inbetween ferrying Josh to football, Rach to band practise etc. Sams home and we did request him to help, he managed a bit longer than me, but it was like an 8 years old'Aw do I have too?'
Yesterday I did go shopping into Bury with Rachel on the hunt for bras. We didnt really have too much success but I managed to buy a top and cardi in New Look and Rachel managed to do me out of alot of money on an outfit and makeup!!! My legs were so bad, weak and painful. Obvioulsy I went shopping on my trusty scooter. We went to our fave coffee shop and had cinamon toast and coffee. naughty me! I saw my Mum and Dad in the distance so RAchel ran after them and brought them back to the coffee shop which was nice. Even better, when we got up to go Dad offered to pay for our afternoon tea.
The fibrofog has been really troublesome lately. Last week I couldnt even remember the name of the microwave and was pointing to 'that thing that heats food up'! Also, incase you hadnt noticed spelling seems to be eluding me lately. I just look blankly at words. Something else I've noticed is that I ofetn cant make sense of accents like I used to esp when watching telly. I was watching this new American series..'Dirty, sexy Money and they spoke so fast I couldnt catch it. it just made me exhausted so I gave up.
We have a wedding to go to tonight and I'll have to steel myself for not being annoyed when I cant join in and dance. My legs are so bad today,plus my hips have been locking. When I got out of bed this morning my right knee gave way and a pain shot up my left heel so I was trying to hop about like a Thunderbird puppet singing the Thunderbirds theme. Good job I've a sense of humour!!!

Diet
I did 3 weeks of Slimfast and guess what? I lost exactely....Zilch!!!! I put 1lb on!!! of course this is the much lamented medication balssing thing up. I feel very frustrated by it all. I was only musing about it all on the GL forum I go on. The inital weight gain was obviousely my fault as I comfort ate whilst seriously depressed. BUT my lack of loosing weight now is because of my meds and inability to be very active. I feel as though people are looking at me thinking 'yuk. what a blob'. I feel like wearing a t-shirt with 'I'm only this size because of my meds' printed on it!!! its really disheartening. I've decided to stick to GL as a damage limitaition exercise so that I dont gain any weight. I only have to deviate slightly to gain an lb and then it wont shift. I'll just have to be a wobbly blob for Josh's barmitzvah.

HOmelife
On the home front. Sam is back for a couple of weeks. its lovely having him here but it makes me realise just how independent he is now and is his own man. We cant boss him about the same. having said that I did think he might want to help his Dad decorate, but then he's always been a bit lazy!!
Josh has yet another temp and bug. Poor lad. he was supposed to be going to the pictures with his girlfriend yesterday!! We find this hilarious that our self proclaimed 'babe magnet' has a girlfriend at the age of nearly 12! he was most put out yesterday that he had to cancel and was worried incase she finished with him! ah! Apparently at school, rachel says, he follows his young lady around like a lost sheep!! There has been much use of hair gel , Lynx and aftershave lately!!!

Finally.. an F.O!!!

KNITTING

YAY! Finally! its only taken me till MArch and I've finally finished something! My Panda socks

The yarn is Panda Cotton. I loved the 70's style colourway. The yarn is lovely and soft and stretchy BUT My negatives are; It splits as I've found most cottons do and there was barely enough on each ball of yarn for 1 size 5 (English) sock. I had to sew up in black yarn and I really could've done with an extra 1/2 inch in the foot. Still they're lovely and cozy.

Stepping stones is washed and drying ready for pressing. BUT I've noticed ,1, I've sewn 1 sleeve on inside out!!!and the edging band is frilling so I think I' m going to have to undoe the edging and re sew it ! How irritating. The patern did say slightly stretch the band as you sew it on. I've done it the other way round and stretched the jacket!!! I set out with good ideas and always seem to mess them up somehow.

One of my future projects is 2 at a time socks so I bought a couple of books to learn from.

and here is the Kureyon sock yarn I bought a few weeks ago.

I love these colours.

I've cast on a lace scarf- Cats PAws and am doing my vest top for mindless knitting. Hope fully, as this one is in pure wool it wont expand at the alarming rate the Sirdar one did!!!

FM

The exhaustion has been bothering me the last few weeks which means I've not been able to do much. The exhaustion was emotionally linked as we had 3 rough weeks . No prizes for guessing which small nearly 12 year old was responsible for most of it.!

I went to the pain clinic last week and was surprised that he wants to see me again in 3 months. I thought I'd be discharged this time as the patches are working so thats good.

Theres nothing worse that feeling like a boiled dishcloth and just lying there all feeble and 'Victorian 'like! Think I was having the 'vapours'!! I kept chastising myself and saying pull yourself togehter. Most people handle huge emotional strains and dont run out of physical energy. What I have discovered is that since the severe depression I have a coping mechanism now for emotional stress. I seem to switch off. I remain calm becuase I'm totally detached and not taking it all in. But then after a while my brain litterally switches off. Like if your computer freezes and then shuts down. I have to lie in a dark, quiet room and sleep.

I was reading The Rose Of Sebastopol about a Victorian woman and how they didnt cope with any stress and it reminded me of me. Must remember to loosen my stays!!!

The cleaner was ill on Thursday and didnt show. I cleaned 1/2 the kitchen and spent the rest of the day in bed and then Friday I dusted the lounge and the same thing happened. really annoying. Mind you I think I also had a bug as I did feel poorly and my temp was up a bit. That always wiped me out. Saturday I stayed in my PJ's all day and lounged around. that is not like me. since the depression the one thing I always do , even if nothing ele, is get dressed as being in my PJ's all day reminds me of that time.

Oh boy the Fibrofog has def been taking hold this past few eeks. I keep forgetting the nsme of household objects . I couldnt remember the microwave a few days ago. I'm going ' Put your food on .... er.... Whats that thing called (Pointing to Microwave!). I've forgotten so much lately. it must all be tied into stress and the bug. or I'm going doolally!!!!

Home front

Well I'm not going to discuss the reasons for the emotional turmoil here other thatn to say 2 lots involved Josh and 1 lot Sam all following on from each other in 3 weeks.

Josh is hopefully being sorted out at school now. We met with his head of year and he's on a daily report for his behaviour but its focusing on positive things. His behaviour seems to be improving we hope!! I realised that the cause for this disruptive behaviour is the fact that he hasnt made the transiton to high school. Instead of being timid and quiet as I would be if overwhelmed, he's gone the other way and become wild and uncontrolable. His junior school is in the same campus as the high school and he still goes back to see his year 6 teacher at lunch time. She was lovely. very strict, but very motherly and he adored her. he hasnt cut the ties. He doesnt like the big impersonal nature of high school he wants the attention of the one to one at junior school and he's getting the attention negatively. Hopefully things will turn around now. he also still has 'issues' with me and my illness which he's going to gt councelling for.

Rachel got 2 awards at the Prize giving at school . One was for whats known in hebrew as Midot. This translates as character traits. Midot can be positive or negative. Rachel got her award for basically being a lovely person. please God by Joshua!!! She also got one for C.D.T. But its the Midot one I'm most proud of.
At Home Rach is shedding her 'unusually perfect for a teenager ' guise and turning into a 16 year old!!! Mind you she's up to her eyes in G.C.S.E course work, especially art. her art exam is tommorrow and Thursday. The REAl one! eeek!!!! Her art teacher has finally praised her work. Rach was getting rather hacked off with the constant criticism. I think her art is fab, but then I'm totally unbiased!!! HA, hA!!

Last week Josh was quite poorly. he had a flu' type illness with a really hight temp of 40 (104). he kept going bakc to bed which isnt like him. I must have had it too only milder which is why I was so exhausted.

Back to normal this week. Both kids at school. Ours arent off these 2 weeks as Passover doesnt coincide with Easter this year due to a jewish leap year so my lot arnt off till end of April. Sam has finished Uni for 1 month but isnt coming home till this Friday. I think he likes his independence.

Look at all these ends! Plus I've been very naughty!!

Knitting

I've finally, virtually finished the Stepping Stones jacket!! But look at all the ends I've got to weave in . there are hundreds of them. I've been weaving in as \i went along so some of them just need cutting off. I now have to wait till the weekend to get to Hoby Craft for some embroidery thread to sew up with<(you cant sew up with the chenille) and then complete the border, sew it on, wash and press the whole lot, (do you block cotton?) and hey presto!!!

After weeks of a photoless blog-drum roll....... TAH DAH!!! here are some piccies

this is the right side of the jacket, obviously not sewn up or pressed!!

just a few ends to sew in!!!



I've been very naughty!! I broke my stash enhancing ban! I knew it wouldnt take too long. I bought 2 skeins of Kureyon Sock from e-bay. Dont ask me which store, I cant remember!!! Hubby didnt even shout at me which I'm surprised at!! Especially as we're broke and I promised faithfully to use all my stash up and finish however many projects I've got yarn for up there!!! I recon its about 30 now counting sock and lace yarn. I've just seen some Louet Euroflax.....oh it looks gorgeous but I'm being controlled!!! (nibbles nails!)



FM

I'm doing very well indeed. My pain is minimal which is fab. I feel achy like when you've had a long hard day at work (not that I can remember that far back!) or a hard days shopping! (That I can remember!!)

Last week I had a FAB day out. I went into Manchester city centre to the IMAX to see U23D-( see badly loaded half button thingy on the right!)- It was O.K. I mean oggling Bono and Adam so close up was yummy. But I didnt think it was their best concert performance. I prefer My Vertigo DVD. There were also too many shots of the audience going wild. I didnt go to see that!! Still I enjoyed my little self. I went on my leccy scooter (also known as Mr Aston Martin! and no I dont own a real Aston Martin as one of my dear bloggy friends thought!!!) I'd never been to the cinema or Imax on my scooter before. The staff couldnt do enough for me. They were so nice.

After it finished I went into the Arndale centre(shopping mall) and had some lunch and alot of retail therapy. I forgot though that I had to transport all this stuff home! I had huge bags on each handle of my scooter and my poor legs squashed at either side!!! I also had a fight with a make up counter when I mis-judged a 3 point turn on my scooter. I became wedged under a ledge by my left arm and the only way to get out of it was to carry on moving forwards, dragging my arm wedged between the ledge and the scooter handle!!! Ouch. I have a lovely huge bruise at my left elbow!!! I was too embarased to ask for help.

I was very tired Friday, but realised that we have an engagement party this Saturday and Josh had a batmitzvah and one this weekend so I needed presents. On Saturday I reluctantly dragged hubby to the Trafford Centre(Yet another big shopping mall). We took my parents with. They were very grateful as Dad cant drive on the motorway any more. We litterally went to Debenhams and that was it. Hubby and Rachel went off on their own. I got 3 little pressies and a big one for thr engagement party. then we sat and had a coffee. untypically rachel wasnt out this saturday plus Sam was home sow e could've gone out. Rachel asked her friends round hoping we'd go out for the evening, but we were both so tired. I was in bed by 8pm! We watched a good film on tv though The Bourne Identitiy. I dont like thrillers and wouldnt have chosen to watch it but hubby and I were sat in bed and Josh had also been thrown out of the lounge coz of Rachels friends so we watched it. it was really gripping. The second one is on this Saturday. we'll have to tape it.

I do seem to have more energy. just lately. I went swimming Monday and did 12 baby lenghts and then came home and hoovered through the whole of downstairs. Tuesday my feet were very painful but I still hobbled to art. Tuesday night we had parents eve for Josh. But that is another post entirely!!!!
FM moves around. so whilst my feet arnt too bad, my shoulders and neck are killing me.



Diet

I'm partly ditching the GL diet as it just hasnt worked for me. I'm too inactive and the Lyrica plays havoc with my metabolism. I'm trying SlimFast to see if it will kick start the weight loss. I know quick fix diets dont work in the long term. BUT I cant imagine even this will be quick fix with me. Plus I have 3 stone to loose in 14 months so I look slim for Josh's Barmitzvah. I've always thought meal replacements a daft idea until now. But when you're desparate you'll do anything. so I'm doing as the advert says, a slimfast shake for breakfast, one for lunch and a sensible meal at night, plus 2 snacks in betweeen. This is where I'm sticking to the GL. Snacking on fruit or oatcakes rather that the pre-packaged slimfast snacks. I'm not really too keen on the shakes in terms of additives and preservatives but needs must. I've only been hungry between 4-7pm and in danger of over snacking but we'll see how it goes. I figure the only way I'll loose weight is to drastically cut calories. I may ask if I can come off the Lyrica now the Butrans patches are working we shall see.



The Earthquake

Did any one else feel that earthquake on Tuesday? I was startled out of sleep at 1 am by the walls and doors shaking and rattling. I was scared stiff. I knew what it was because I've experienced 2 other earthquakes in the last 20 years . i thought the epicentre was under our house it shook so violently! it woke Josh and Rachel up too who came running in. Norman stirred and thought I was shaking him awake!! Now I may be a tad hefty at the mo, but not that big!! Well its certainly a long time since the earth moved for me!!!!!

This weeks shenanigins-Josh's dart board and a valentines day meal out

Family front
Its half term and Josh has wangled a dart board out of us!! When he first started going on about it We refused point blank. Can you imagine? Poor old Sox (the cat) would be speared into the wall by his tail!! For 3-4 weeks we've just been saying no. But Josh is the king of the 'broken record' method of wearing you down. he just goes on and on and on. In the end he said we dont trust him(cant imagine why he'd have that idea!) and we dont treat him like a grown up. fair point so we had a discussion and decided to try trusting him. he paid for the dart board and its on his bedroom door. The bedroom door is now rather holey!! he's been warned. One step out of line and its removed forever. So far so good. I said to hubby perhaps treating him more adult like may pay off. But we wont hold our breath! It just needs one silly friend of his....
We've had a house full of rachels friends which I like , they're lovely kids. I have to laugh though. She never says, 'I'm asking so and so round' The door bell just rings and in walks whomever, then it rings again. and so it goes on! The only warning I need is if she's having any of her male friends stay for tea. 2 of them eat like horses and we've been embaressed before by not having enough food! We've had an endless slupply of Pizzas in. I do re-assure her friends that we do eat healthily sometimes!!! Rachel has driven me mad all wweek as My morning routine is to lie in then have a very hot soak in the bath to loosen my joints and muscles. every morning Rachel beat me to the bath and was in for over an hour so if I'd've waited it would've been 12 md before I got bathed. the day would've been gone!! I really got cross with her to which the standard reply is, 'chill woman (woman!!?). Its only a bath. jeez, keep yer 'air on'!!!
We had a great family day out on Sunday. we went to Beeston Castle in Cheshire. I sat in the grounds with the grannies as the climb to the castle ruins is very steep and left the others to it. I never thought about the logisitcs of actually getting to the castle. I should've taken my knitting or a book. So whilst they all huffed and puffed up the steep incline I sat in the februaruy sun and creeked to the loo!! what an exciting trip. Then we went on to a gorgeous pub in the countryside nearby and had Sunday lunch. it was yummmy. It was so warm we sat outside. I havnt done that for years. Afterwards, despite being stuffed, we took the kids to Cheshire Farm Which makes its own, gorgeous, icecream and we indulged. All in all it was a lovely day out and as I said to hubby, I dont think we've done that for about 5-6 years because of my illness's!!
Thursday I suggested we meet up with my parents for lunch forgetting hubby and I were out for valentines day. We went to Pizza Express. I had a salad nicoise so was very good. it was nice and a good chance for the grandparents to see the kids. Despite me making the arrangements dad paid so it was even better!!
last night Hubby and I went out for valentines day. we went to a local pub which does good food and had a special 3 course meal on for £18 per head. Which when you consider that a top Manchester hotel wanted £35 per head for a similar thing, is good value for money.It was my treat to say thankyou to hubby for all his caring and running around after me.

FM
On the FM front I'm tons better than I was . But my feet are hurting at present especially my heels. so walking is difficult. After Sunday I've been totally exhausted all week. Not helped by rachels hogging the bath routine. I've been showering and saving my soak for bedtime. I didnt really want to start the guilt trip bit,'I need the bath for my pain' routine. But I did blurt it out when I lost my temper with her. Today she's out at work with hubby. Free bathroom!!! except the cleaner is here so I had to get up and dressed!!
I've done very little this week. I think I overdid it the last few weeks coz I felt better.
Yesterday was a very uncomfortable day. sitting in a chair at the Pizza Express, then coming home and spending too much time on-line then sitting yet again in an uncomfy wooden chair for dinner last night. I sat in the restaurant for 10 mins and wished I was at home in bed! I grinned (or grimaced!) and bore it. With several 'loo' trips to stretch. ! I'd be no good on a long haul flight. Today I'm chair shapped and very sore!!!I've been sat here too long aswell. trouble is at present I cant really get comfy on the sofa. I have to sit with my legs up as they hurt, but Resting my heels on the recliner hurts so I'm knitting sloping down so my heels hang off the end of the recliner!!! Ah the joys!

KNITTING
I havnt done lot really. I'm just so uncomfortable at present and my hands and left shoulder hurt so its a few rows at time. Mind you there are 250 stitches on each row.! I've finished a sleeve of the Stepping stones jacket and have gone back and unpicked one side of the back where I knitted a peice in upside down!!. I'm getting there very slowly. By March I hope to at least have finished one W.I.P!!!

Diet
Hmmmm. I'm still stuck at the same weight I've been for 4 weeks despite my best GL efforts! I've signed up for a trial with the GL site. I didnt think they'd want me as I'm hardly star material am I. weight loss woman of the year!I dont think so. I could claim the 'Pissed of coz her weight wont come off because of the medication, especially Lyrica,' award!!!! (could they fit all that on the cup!?)