Pre-Teen for sale!!!

Its been a tough few days with a certain nearly 13 year old. lots of rows, shouting and such like. At one point he was so cheeky I ran after him (didnt know I possessed so much energy!) Forced my way into his bedroom and forced the x-box control off him . I gave it to Mr Cinders to take to work so he couldnt have it that day. On Saturday Josh was so badly behaved that he was banned from going to his friends, the pictures and a sleep over that day. Mr Cinders and I are determined we're going to knock this bad behaviour and disrespect out of Josh. We MEAN Business!! We've rowed all week about him helping at home so by Teusday I told him that if he didnt make his own breakfast and lunch and empty the dishwasher everyday during the hols I would refuse to cook him any meals and I wouldnt do his washing so he's have no clean clothes. I think, after he saw how ill he made me Tuesday after all the rowing, that the message is finally sinking in. Its taken until today, the last day, for him to get some food and empty the dishwasher on first asking only!!! he is such a lazy boy that he'd rather starve, eat crisps than make a butty or open some spahetti hoops.

The worst is that I've knitted my first ever charity hat in my own ,hand dyed yarn, for the Mirasol project. I'd left the hat in the lounge and found it cut on Tuesday. apparently josh had done it in a fit of temper when he was grounded on Saturday!! needless to say I'm fuming. I'm going to see if I can oversew it somehow.

anyway, back to school on Monday. Hurray!! if he's like this now, heaven knows what his teenage years are going to be like. But he now knows whos boss!!!

The FM SAGA
Well last week was a disaster! I was in bed monday , Tuesday and Wednesday exhausted and in pain. I didnt go to sleep until 6am Wed morning and I was in aboiling hot bath at 3am not knowing where to put my body. This despite morphine and tramadol!! i didnt sleep too well Wed night either and was to be found in the bath again at 3am Thursday Morning. Then I had a bright idea!! I was taking Amytriptilene for the sleeplessness until The early days of last year. I stopped it as I felt as though I was sleeping o.k and it makes you put on weight so it stopped it. So Thursday morning I rang my GP and asked if I could try it again to tide me over this flare. I slept like a log Thursday night!! and so did Mr Cinders!! It made me realise just how badly I have been sleeping these last 9-10 months or so, so I'm going to stay on it until after the Barmitzvah which is 9 weeks away! EEEKKK!!
I felt really good at the weekend and on Saturday night we had a lovely Valentines meal at a local Bistro Pub- very yummy indeed.

Then Tuesday I went to Manchester and spent 2 hours on Kendals (House of Frazer) trying on posh outfits. I look an absolute bugger in most if it!!! I did see one thing but wasnt sure so I'll keep looking. Most outfits are made for tall willowy girls not small dumpy weeble looking people like myself!
Now ofcourse I feel desperately exhausted again. Still I'm hoping to go to The Trafford Centre tommorrow and investigate some designer shops and see what Debenhams have got.

Sunday we're off to Leeds to see SAm. He has actually requested our presence!! So for all his bluster and bravado about loving being away from home, he still misses us!

Nice bits
The highlight of the week was watching U2 play at the opening of the Brits. on TV ofcourse! that cheered me up, though of course wouldnt you just know my parents rang just as it was about to start so they got a very breif conversation!!! Sods law isnt it when theres something you've been looking forward to!
othe than my meal out and a shop the rest has been poo!!!

Knitting

There was the Mirasol hat, and Mr Cinders sock still in progress and I cast on a gorgoeus floaty shrug from the French Girls Knits Book. I must take photos. Its in Gold KId Silk Night.

I tried spinning yesterday and it killed my legs and my energy went so no spinning for me for a feww eeks now.

Thank you for your support

Just a quicky to say thankyou to all of you who left messages for me on Tuesday. I was very touched and it really helped to know that people are reading my blog and care.
I'm sorry I havnt replied to all your messages on your blogs individually as I'm really not well with the blasted fibro at the mo.

BUT I'm please to say I am feeling better mentally. On Wednesday I went for relaxation, meditation and a massage which really helped.

Other than that I've been in bed alot this week exhausted and in pain and am back on the tramdol on top of the Morphine!! So I wont be barmitzvah clothes shopping today, I'm staying in my PJ's and resting. No Dyeing either, though I do have some skeins to re-skein and put on Etsy, but I think they will have to wait.
My arms and hands are hurting and feel weak like my legs so I'm finding it difficult to knit, boohoo!! But I'm soldering on

Thanks once again . you are true online cyber friends xxxxxx

Boy am I Pissed off!!!

I try not to use my blog to rant about the fibro. but its my blog and no-one seems to be reading it anyway so what the hell!!

I'm just so fed up at the mo. I'm exhausted and cant stay up past 5pm most days. its getting me really down. I'm living a half life in this twighlight zone!!

I must admit I dont realyl rest when I'm up. but I dont do a huge amount. On saturday we went to our local town Bury and I tried on 2 outfits for the Barmitzvah. One was nice, but not wow and when she told me it was £350 I kindly declined to buy it!!! But when we got back I went to bed. Sunday I dyed 4 skeins of yarn. I was exhausted afterwards, but forced myself to stay up so that I didnt fall asleep at 6pm and then not sleep at night. I slept dreadfully that night.

hear is an odd thing/. when the pain is manageable and the exhaustion isnt too bad I can sleep for Britain. When I'm totally exhausted and in pain. i.e having a flare I cant sleep!!! Bonkers isnt it?

Yesterday I was on my knees all day. If it wasnt for the fact that Josh had an appt at 3.30pm I would've spent the day in bed. The night had been one of those where I doze for 20 mins. wake up doze for 20 mins etc all night. By the time we got home last night I felt so ill it was jarmies on and into bed again!!! Now today I slept till 10pm. had a very long soak, came on here, dyed 2 skeins only and did a bit of spinning for 5 mins, Oh and I re-skeined 2 yarns and photgraphed them ready to go on my site. I'm totally wacked again and am going for a rest.

I think I'm down too. Its feb and the lack of light starts affecting me around this time. I think my day light reserves have run out! Not that they were particularly topped up last summer!

ah well.
I shall try and count my blessings rather than getting frustrated. But like this weekend I've asked my pals round Saturday night. It'll be a takeway as I cant cope with cooking. Then I'll have to stay in and do nothing all day Saturday if I want to be up sat night. the same goes for next week, valnetines day. If we want to go out Sat night I'll have to stay in bed most of saturday. I think some one has nicked my 'spoons' and I only have 3-4 at the mo!!!